Silence—the realest shit I never spoke…

Shut the FUCK up.

Verse 1:
Yea...
I told you I'd be back
Left for dead near the exit steps
beholden to the crack
Dragged to the lab
Head kept coldly in the cap
Strapped to a pad, yet
'least there's something to hold me in the trap
Just phonies in the pack—
spliffs twisted—like, "Get lifted!"
Dismissive 'cause his sickness
don't exist on his pigment
Like, "Addiction's for the weak
and the wicked." Think I'm listless
'cause I listen to physicians
with the sinister mission of enlistment?
They call me timid—
convinced it's all in my mind—
then got the nerve to turn
and tell me all I need is god!
Shit... You think I asked for this?
You blasphemous bitch
You’re a follower, a fraud—
lost if there's no ass you can kiss
I've endured psychosis
Bipolar roller coasters
and learned to hold my own
afloat in an ocean of vultures
So who are you to diminish
the damn path that I’ve been through?
'Cause you’re simple
and can't imagine half of that info
People like me
don't make it past 15
A decade later
I've spent half of that shit clean
I'm not street, but I ain’t pristine
so spare your thoughts shit streak
and peep trajectories next time
you cross to come get me, bitch.

Hook:
This why
I've been lifeless—beat chest
This why
I've been writing deep breaths
A taste of wasted
Yea, this what I’ve been waiting for
A wayward core
The fuck you know about chasing more?
Bruised, made me wane
Yea, that's what the waits were for
The bane of my existence
Now watch this faceless vagrant soar...

Verse 2:
I was down and out
begging for your help
Though I don't blame you for leaving—
caught in the center of my Hell
Had to flee, so be it
but why'd it have to be like this?
Unwavering, thrown to the wake
but couldn't loan me a life vest?
Like you ain’t have a landline
or memorize my coordinates?
Wanted to forget even if it meant
my death would be timely yet unfortunate...
Prayed I’d sink
without a bubble to betray you
Well this is for my double
and all the trouble that he saved you
The night I alluded suicide
and never heard back—
high off my ass, cruising in circles
in search of a smooth crash—
thankfully noticed last moment
you don't deserve that
Not 'cause you don't deserve bad—
You ain’t worth my urn with your bird ass!
Heart turned black, cracked
while you surged the perfect exit
'Fore you kill yourself for a person
make sure they're worth the effort!
Couple years down the line
shit, you wouldn't of minded
Would've blindsided the afterlife
if you ever took a real dive, miss
But you? Crooked, spineless
Here's a hook for your highness
Hell, I fucking tried
You can't kill a hooker with kindness!
Fine, look at my grind
like you’re the cause of it all
but you weren't there for the growth
you were just the cause of the fall, bitch.

Hook:
This why
I've been lifeless—beat chest
This why
I've been writing deep breaths
A taste of wasted
Yea, this what I’ve been waiting for
A wayward core
The fuck you know about chasing more?
Bruised, made me wane
Yea, that's what the waits were for
The bane of my existence
Now watch this faceless vagrant soar...